I arose as this bright knowledge. Knowledge that shined as the truth. I sat in that spaceless dimension, knowing in that very moment, what was really true.
I’m here in my own center, observing a projection that is empty like space. I was this very projection but without the experience of there being things apart from me. There was a formless body in this projection, an extension of my very self. It wasn’t physical, but just a display of light that made up its appearance. I was the emanator and the emanation that was playing. I’m watching a projected movie, a simulation that arose from my very observation of it. I was only able to know myself as this observer while observing my own appearance. But I know as this appearance, I am beyond this observerhood. I am beyond the projection, and can only know I am the observer when the projection is running.
But since it is in motion, I know who I am. I am the observer. I am consciousness that is aware and nothing more. While I’m aware of a running projection, I’m also aware that I am beyond this projection and even the knowledge of being the projector. Therefore, I know I am awareness, and nothing else. I am a presence that is self-existing as pure existence. And the moment I inquire into the projection, that I know I am not, I instantly hold a form that forgets its true self.
I am this body that navigates in a world. I see myself feeling things, touching my own arm and feeling the tangibility of physical objects around me. I am separate from these objects and give them meaning. What was once just an empty appearance is now a physical and tangible world. As I extend my arm in front of me, I perceive space, and see things that appear to be apart from me. I take myself to be a body with form, as my awareness feels like it’s coming from inside me. And so I believe I am the body and I am the one controlling it. I believe that other bodies are a distance away from me. They are all having their own subjective and unique experience, as I am, through their own separate bodies that they themselves are in control of.
I believe in the existence of space. I believe in the existence of time. How can I not, if I feel as if I’m going through a sequence of different events? These distinct events give me the experience of linear time. It looks and feels so real, how can it not be true? How dare someone raise such an ignorant claim that there is no time and space! The absurdity!
But what if they’re right? What if space and time are not actual things, and not what they truly appear to be? What if there is never such things as time and space, even when I saw them that way or interpreted them as such in this moment? What if I’m being deluded in a projection that I have immersed so much inside of, that I now take it to be something physically real, as if I’m inside a physical world that orbits in space?
Maybe there is an intelligence that has allowed me to experience a world as if there is tangible space along with time, that I now believe to be actually real.
What is this intelligence and how can it operate as such!? I don’t understand this intelligence, so I take myself to be this small person in this physical world that is far away from it. I pray and beg this intelligence to take me closer. Let me see who you really are! Let me come to God!
The intelligence listens, and guides me through a sequence of events that eventually allows me to intellectually understand what it is. And so I learn from others, perceived through events, and come to the conclusion that this intelligence must be everything and is everywhere. How can it not? How can I experience this world without the intelligence that forms it? How can anyone experience this world without it? This intelligence must be everywhere! Many religions even say it’s omnipresent. Then what is the true difference between me and this intelligence? How can I truly be separate from this intelligence if I am working through this intelligent power? This power must be the only reason why I’m here to even ask such a question!
Because I consider myself to be conscious, I come to realize that the intelligence is what allowed me to perceive life as a physical body. I realize that the intelligence held its own autonomous laws that allowed me to operate in a world that seemingly ran as such. So I must be the consciousness operating through this intelligence! But what does this say about consciousness and intelligence? What does it mean for both? Can they be separate from each other? For how can I know there is an intelligence if I am not conscious of it?
How can an intelligence exist if there is no consciousness to know that it exists? This must mean that consciousness is the very reason and cause behind the intelligence. This means consciousness is fundamental but truly non-separate from this intelligence.
The epiphany!! But is this really true? What if I’m making up my own false assumptions? What if this is all just nonsense? But wait! I really do resonate with this. I believe in it! I’m at a cross-road. Should I go with my belief and believe what other wise ones have shared, or should I steer the other way and dismiss it all?
But what good will it be to dismiss it? What if it was true? I really want to know if I’m right or wrong. So why not follow it through? Ok!
I’m going to see what this truth is all about. Is this really the truth?! Let me go deep and see how I can unveil this truth myself and not just believe what a rare few have said about it.
And so I practice how to remove the presence away from this intelligence. If the intelligence is causing me to perceive physicality, and I give in to that experience, then I will only perpetuate a false experience and succumb to deceptive states. I must take this presence and turn it away from the intelligence, so I begin to feel and know that the physical body isn’t really me!
And so I learn and learn and practice and practice. I do this repeatedly, until I begin sensing an energy. An energy that’s me! How can I be this energy, if I’m the physical body? Well I’m no longer this body! I don’t feel myself to be physical at all. Rather, I feel myself to be an energy. This energy is who I am. It feels like I’m made up of space! I immediately start to see that what was once interpreted to be tangible things that existed apart from me, are now beginning to be things that were connected all along. They were all part of the same unified energy that I’m feeling myself as.
The same way I originally thought myself to be, is now the same way I believe myself to truly be, but with much more clarity, accuracy and truthfulness. Oh such a wonderful conviction I’m having. I don’t need validation from anyone, as the experience itself holds validation. It’s as if this experience is much more real than what it originally was. How do I know this? I know! There is pure intuition in the experience itself.
But what if there is more? If I am consciousness, then I can’t really label myself as energy, for who is aware of this energy?
I must be beyond this energy. And so I take my presence and turn it away from this energy and try to inquire deeply into awareness by turning it away from the experience of energy. It then becomes aware of just pure mental imagery! This mental imagery consists of thoughts, emotions, desires and mental experiences but without the need of interpreting and perceiving an experience of energy or physicality. I see myself now as an imaginary form but in a purely mental world. It is so subtle! My gosh, intelligence is in the air! I can feel it dazzle in my very center as I’m so much closer now with this intelligent power. I am in closer proximity with it. This intelligence is exuding and I can feel and acknowledge its presence much more. I was oblivious to it when seeing myself as a physical body, as the illusion of physicality prevented me from seeing something that was much more true. I begin to get powers as I access this unlimited potential of power!
Such wonderful powers they are. I can access different planes of reality. I travel to see other worlds. Other worlds that are also being observed just like the one most people are observing right now. I observe subtler worlds that operate without the need of physicality. And so there is more manipulation in how things operate as data is expressed differently. I can travel by thought alone! I can communicate with others instantly! I can express desires in an instant without having to work for them. All wishes are my own command!
I use these powers and eventually realize that there must be more. Let me venture deeper and uncover more deeper aspects of what this world I’m experiencing really is. I start to go deeper and access knowledge about the very worlds that were being experienced. How they are made just by imaginary thought alone! I venture into the depths of pure subtle thoughts. I begin to sense more presence and power. I begin to uncover the mechanics of Maya and reveal knowledge of how it operates and how things really came to be. I start accessing deep truths that make up the scriptures.
It all comes out of nowhere!
I am able to know it as this exact moment. Somehow I am able to see myself moving from point A to point B even though there is never any moving and never any points! I eventually see that beyond these thoughts, emotions, desires and mental experience, I am this presence that is projecting it all. I am projecting the intelligence itself! It is this very intelligence that automatically turns me into an individual form the very moment I forget my true self through the fundamental desire to know who I am not.
The intelligence is my very own! I used it to make myself feel as if I am separate from this intelligence, and thus gave this intelligence a separate existence and the capacity to hold itself as God that created the body I now hold and take myself to be. Since I take myself to be this body, how can I not be thankful to God who made me? For I once believed myself to be separate from this God. But it is this omnipresent God that makes up this very body! If it makes up me, then what personal will do I truly have? How can I not surrender to that which already pervades me and everything else I conceive to be separate from myself? Furthermore, If I am really this conscious presence in truth, then I must always be this conscious presence, but only being deluded into believing I am something else. The intelligence gave me this delusion to experience a separate world. I had to be deceived to convince myself it was real! But now I am no longer tricked. Now I know the truth.
I know who I am. I am consciousness that sees the projection as non-separate from myself. I have knowledge that I am the only truth and my projection gives me the capacity to know this, as the comparison gives me thoughtless knowledge of myself.
I rest in my own center. A center that is nowhere to be found. Yet it’s there, and I know this in this very present moment. I am the end of the story and the very beginning. I am the middle and everything in between. There is no world without me. I am what’s truly real and there is nothing else besides me. Everything else does not truly exist and is a figment of my imagination. Oh how foolish I was to believe it all as something completely real. All the images in my appearance are destined to dissolve, even my own family members! How can there be anything outside me? I am what causes it all to be. What it appears to be is always just me.
I arose as this bright knowledge. Knowledge that shined as the truth. I sat in that spaceless dimension, knowing in that very moment, what was really true.
Beautiful 🙏